Ok, ok I feel I need go on a personal journey. I don't mean that I need to go on a "mission" where I solicit religion to people at their door and might possibly get shot or be greeted by men who can't "keep the mouse in the house".
I thought about these lyrics from the Gwen Stefani song "What are you Waiting for?":
"Naturally, I'm worried if I do it alone
Who really cares, cause it's your life
You never know it could be great
Take a chance cause you might grow"
I need to do something out of character. I mean really out of character and not something like talking to a girl with cool hair or buying purple shoes.